It’s harder than I thought it would be! I feel like I miss B so much since so much of my time I have M attached to me. Literally. She doesn’t like to be set down and she comfot nurses/cluster feeds from like 2pm-7pm. He’s doing great about it, he’s very understanding. I’m very thankful for that. But it makes me feel sad and miss him. And I haven’t thought much about how it will never be just me and him again, like we’ve been used to for so long. Which isn’t a bad thing, just a big change! It takes me a long time to adjust to change. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZgIrXKpv2gw) Man I wish I could figure out how to imbed videos in this blog.
This week was back to normal and it went pretty well! I wasn’t so nervous about getting M into the car 4+ times a day (more if I have an appt., which I did twice). She did great, and we were able to time things appropriately with getting everyone ready and to the car. The one time I had to make dinner this week (still living off freezer meals and people who brought stuff!) didn’t work out because she didn’t want to go in the carrier at the time. But I was able to do the dishes a few times, laundry a few times, and power clean the fridge. Still way behind on all that… oh well, I guess weekends will be catch-up time.
Things are going better getting the hang of M too. Eating-wise she’s doing better with her latch and I’m not so sore anymore. She eats every 1-2 hours for 5-10 minutes, just like B did. Except for in the afternoons/evenings where it’s never longer than 30 minutes, but a lot of those times she falls to sleep instantly. I just can’t remove her then or she is displeased! So yeah, except in the mornings she really won’t sleep unless I’m holding her. At night I have been trying to get her to sleep in the bassinet, which occasionally she will do for an hour or so once a night. But by 1-2am I bring her into the bed with me because that’s the only way we get any real sleep. I usually have hardly any sleep before that point, if any at all. She’ll sleep closer to 2 hours in a row that way, and two nights ago after having her in bed next to me at 1am she only woke up at 3 and 5 (and got up at 6:30 as we have to)… I felt refreshed that day! And then last night she slept from 11pm-1am with me! I didn’t want to deal with the bassinet routine at the time, and I fed her lying down in bed because I didn’t feel like I’d fall asleep doing so at the moment. A friend said that would help babies when you have overactive letdown, which I have and gives her issues. Maybe it did help her because dang, 3 hours! I was ready to get up for the day after that! Ha!
She doesn’t do a lot of new stuff yet of course. I’m curious how big she is now because she doesn’t fit in the newborn size clothes anymore, her newborn size diaper cover really doesn’t fit, and one of her little hats doesn’t fit. Her cheeks are definitely cheekier and her arms are armier and her legs are ever so slightly leggier too. It’s nice to have evidence that she’s growing properly! She’s awake for longer periods of time now and every so often is starting to make almost coo-y sounds. Another few weeks and she could be telling all kinds of lovey stories. Awww.